Used to be held captive by my fears Shackles on my wrists like souvenirs Lost myself in anything Couldn't see the ending through my tears Used to hold my tongue and play along Only knew that I had to be strong Lost my own identity Didn’t know what in my world was wrong Sugarcoated all my pain Couldn’t help it I was just a kid then Begging for a break Now I’m 20 Pushing 21 Hoping that I’ll be someone Running from the person I created when I had no one 20 Pushing anxiously Hoping that I’ll be happy Writing to the person I wanna be In a letter to me So I’m done letting myself bleed In a spiral of my own self pity I’m done searching for remedies in people who don't care about me Yeah there’s a lot of things I don’t know But I know that I’m on my way To finally being okay all alone No more sugarcoating all my pain Couldn't help it I was just a kid Begging for a break Now i’m 20 Pushing 21 Hoping that I’ll be someone Running from the person I created when I had no one 20 Pushing anxiously Hoping that I’ll be happy Writing to the person I wanna be In a letter to me